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This Is What Space Did To Us
COVID-19 happened to a lot of people, and it happened to us too. From lockdowns to restricted travelling, we were stuck. Rather, we felt stuck. We were trapped in a country we could no longer recognise.
The apartment was small, but you made it feel big with your love and care.
When you were at your best, I felt blessed and inspired to be a better person. I was touched by your warm hospitality towards the people around you, and I was proud to be your partner. Your kindness towards the community was something to be admired. Most importantly, I felt like I could share anything with you without fear and without holding back. You were my best friend.
Little did I know that subconsciously, I was changing as a person. I let my guard down, maybe a bit too much. What started off as having the space to be myself around you turned into giving you the space to fundamentally, albeit slowly, change who I was. After a while, we both felt a little trapped in our small space, in our small bubble. We could no longer recognise each other too.
For one reason or another, I felt like the score was being kept count and I was on the losing team. From religious beliefs to the social hierarchy, the odds were against me from the start when I wanted so badly to believe otherwise. Standards were held, and I relented. I started feeling guilty for…
